Rowan Blake

Writes for Inner Light Daily

About

I am a freelance illustrator based in Portland, 29. I work from my apartment, which means I have no commute and too much time alone with my thoughts -- which may be partly why the spiritual awakening hit me the way it did.

The precise timeline: two years ago, slow freelance season, woke up one morning and felt like the volume on everything had been turned up. Not a crisis, not a breakdown -- something else that I still do not have a clean word for. I spent the following year cycling through everything I could find that might help me understand it. Meditation apps. Breathwork classes at a studio a few blocks away. Sound baths where I cried in front of strangers, which was uncomfortable and also real. A crystal shop I visited more than I expected to. More midnight YouTube rabbit holes than I want to admit. Journals I filled faster than I thought I could.

Some of that year did nothing measurable. The meditation practice changed how I work. The journaling uncovered things I had been stepping around. Some of the programs and tools I tried -- guided content, specific practices -- genuinely helped me work with what was happening rather than just survive it. Those are the ones I write about here. I write about the ones that did not work too, because that information is actually more useful.

I am not a spiritual teacher. Not a healer, not a practitioner, not certified in anything. I have no background in psychology beyond what I have read and experienced. I am an illustrator who went through something unexpected and documents it in writing because that is how I process things. Every entry on this site is a real session, a real practice, a real result or non-result. I write in first person because that is the only thing I have reliable access to.

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Disclosure

Some links on this site are affiliate links. If you purchase through them, I earn a commission at no extra cost to you. I only share tools and programs I have personally used in my own practice. Commission does not change what ends up here -- if something did not work or felt overhyped, I say so.